Saturday, August 10, 2013

Getting Back on the Three Job Horse

So, in 2011, I had a lot of jobs. A lot of independent contractor jobs. Which means I paid a lot of taxes when I didn't really make a lot of money. It kind of sucked. So, I promised myself I had to at least go all of 2012 with just the two jobs where I was actually an employee.

But in 2012, I also had my jaw rebel against me and ended up paying a ton in medical co-pays and for very crucial tests and supplements that insurance didn't cover. Hurray!

And now I feel very broke. And the interest is about to kick in on my TMJ treatment payment (which is more than 50% paid off... but is still 4 figures of pain).

The good news is that I am at least feeling better from all those expenses actually somewhat working and can now look for an additional part-time job.

My office is very close to an upscale mall, so that seems to be where the majority of retail job opening possibilities are. Some of the openings are for the same chain stores in most malls. But some of them are also for brands that only have other stores in New York City, Las Vegas, and Los Angeles. And refer to themselves as "concept stores". Which is fine, but I feel like such a sore thumb when the staff that already works in that store are all very thin very tan girls in tiny black dresses.

And, man, I thought job hunting when I wasn't in desperate need of a job would be easier. Turns out it is not. I sweat a lot when I'm about to head into an interview.

I had one this morning and... I'm pretty sure I'm not going to get the job. Like, 90% sure. But at least, while my nerves leading up to the interview are still as bad, I don't have the crushing wave of "I suck" emotions afterwards. I used to just bawl after a bad interview. Or call a family member and start crying about how bad it was.

Now... I know I can just keep at it. I have a full-time job with benefits, my world doesn't depend on getting the job. This is just to make it so I can both pay down my loans and bills and also try to build a savings.